Remind: Rewind

As to finding balance itself ... that's a different thought to me somehow. Where's the balance in changing all the time? I haven't found it. I'm not a balanced person and don't know that I want to be. Maybe someday I will want balance. And then if balance is even achievable.. that's a whole nother thought.

I jump from side to side to side and back again and twirl round and round with ideas, I don't think of it as anything like balance. It's more like accumulation of experience and knowledge and the expansion of concepts to encompass more and more and more.

Probably one big (maybe THE big) reason I wrote Immersion is because I'm in the midst of the above thought about balance and my lack of it. At the time I said I didn't want balance. Haha.

Well almost immediately I get a helpful comment that influenced me to rethink what I'd said. (Gosh that's so often the case these days.. think something then uhoh-- rethink it --or REWIND.)

So here's what I have decided: I want to rethink, rewind, regroup, re-whatever more frequently than I've been wont to do in the past. The reason I want to do that is so that I can arrive at my next step more quickly than I would otherwise. Reflect. There's another "re" word. Haha. Reword.

A little aside: One of the most helpful things in the world is rewording things to fit a new paradigm. I might start writing it all out on separate little post-its to plunk around the house for reminders. My new vocabulary in recent years has replaced old terms with new ones. Such as: "learn" in place of "teach" and "do" in place of "try."

Back to the beginning of this blogpost... rewinding (insert sound of a cassette winding--- zzzzip). So, balance is becoming less underrated in my mind. I am seeing that the value of balance, making tiny adjustments constantly, is to avoid the danger of falling over. Pretty simple thought. Another good thing in favor of balance is to adjust my momentum in the process as needed rather than constantly spinning at a high rate only to grind to a halt. To avoid getting stuck in thinking the same thoughts.

The benefit to "mind rewind" is that my thoughts come out a little different each time, unlike a tape recording.

Funny thing happened on the way to writing this blogpost: a list of "re" words:

reason
rethink
rewind
regroup
reflect
reword
remind
recent
record
repertoire
replace

I *swear* the tricks my mind plays on me are unconscious attempts to bring more order to my thoughts. ;)

~Katherine